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This week of classes in Matters of the heart opened my eyes to a new level of my relationship with God, others and myself. I could finally realize the importance of my heart and its purpose in my life.

I need to love God with everything that is in me. My heart controls both my body and it is the center of my being, who I am. It is the center of my spiritual life and human body. Everything within me needs to love God.

When I look into my heart I need to see to the attitude of it. The attitude to everything around me: God, others and myself, all of these are connected with each other. The attitude of my heart determines my life and destiny. We have two commandments “to love God and to love your neighbor as yourself”, and that needs to be my attitude. To always walk in love and my attitude of walking in love must be according to the love of God – unconditional.

The matters of my heart starts with me. I need to have a heart for myself and sort out all the junk that I have in it to get a new Godly heart. I have to start with loving myself with the love of God and then carry on with loving others. If I don’t love myself I can’t fulfill anything of what God has called me to do because I haven’t understood his first commandment. God can’t use me if my heart is not right. I need to take responsibility for my heart and put effort to get it right. I must let the word of God transform my heart, to a heart that he can freely use to reach others.

Everything that has to do with my life and my being comes down to the matters of my heart – for my life starts in my heart. (Pro 4:23)

I want to fulfill Gods plan with my life by having a pure and strong heart. I want God to be able to say that I was a woman after his own heart!

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As usual, there are a lot of things that needs to be done during a conference (ministers conference, winter camp meeting etc) and this week I was assigned to help out in some way in every service except from one. I either did worship, seating, café or RBI table and thought that it would be a busy week but still hoped that I could receive as much as possible from God and stay focused on what He wanted to do in and through me.

But even if my expectancy was high, God still topped my expectations once again! It is amazing how God can take you to places and situations you never thought you would visit and how He constantly can meet you in a new way.

During the whole week God spoke to me about His great plans for me, and that I must believe more in myself. I can do all things through Christ, who strengthen me. God spoke to me about that I am not just a servant that He wants to throw around and be a Big Boss to, but that I first and foremost am his beloved, precious daughter that He just wants to stay close to and love – and after that, I can spread that love forward to others. I just felt like God confirmed how much He loves me and that He is proud over me and what I am doing for His kingdom – how I am affecting other people. After Camp Meeting, I just felt so encouraged to keep on living for God in EVERYTHING I DO. Nothing else matters!

And then on one of the services when Pastor Rodney was called up all the international people and were praying for our nations, God once again reminded me of the dream I have in my heart to go back to Sweden and bring this fire and joy that I have experienced here! When I heard all the preaching about God’s fire on Winter Camp Meeting, I really felt that this is what Sweden need! I’ve known that for a long time, but as I said, the dream got reborn!